What do I exactly want out?
- A family to come home to and love
- A man I love so dearly
- Friends that I grow and learn with
- To work with passion
- Well rounded knowledge
- To become healthy
- To give people hope and motivation
This is just the beginning of the list. As I pursue happiness I’m sure my list will grow. I’m glad to have at least checked off “A man I love so dearly” because without him most of these things wouldn’t be possible. It’s an ease at mind to have support and help along the journey to become a stronger better self.
I can’t lose myself anymore. I can’t let small things stand in the way of me attaining what I want out of life. I have to keep moving, find alternatives, and stay positive.
I really just need to remember that things happen for a greater purpose.
I’ve fucked up. I hurt him so bad i can’t even find a way to say sorry.
All i can do is take the emotional stress and fights we have everyday.
I can’t do anything to go back and fix it. But ill try anything to undo what has been done.
I would sell my soul to make things right.
I know it seems stupid and childish, but when you know you’ve found “the one” you’d be suprised to what extremes it’ll take you.
My bf can’t look at me without being disgusted and reminded about my past.
Try being in love with a person who feels that way about you.
Life hits hard. And i want everyone to know to brace themselves and always do what is right. Don’t lose yourself.
Otherwise, this is where you’ll end up.
No matter how many messages i write i can never get myself to push send because i can’t take back what i damage.
Even better its my bf whose telling me. Too bad I’m too weak and stupid to leave.
Its too bad everything said was true. I shouldve walked away.
I’m sitting here being told how shitty i am.